"I am part of God's perfect plan, and all the bad and good of my life can be used by Him for others. It is not my position to hold this against God. He knows everything and I am limited to bearing it."
My name is Oscar Maldonado. I was born in Northern Mexico in 1961. I studied Business Administration in 1984 and got a masters degree in Developed Organization in 1991. I have lived in many cities in Mexico. I know my country and love it very much. I have lived in Guadalaraja (population six million) since 1992.
Here I met the most lovely girl and precious jewel on earth, the one who would be my wife for the rest of my life. We got married in 1995, and this was the greatest moment in my life since receiving Jesus Christ as my Savior. Her name is Olivia. We have two children here and one precious treasure in heaven since our first baby miscarried and God took him to be with Him.
All of my family lives in Monterrey. I am the youngest of four children. I have a Catholic background and I was active in church. I became a Christian in 1980 when a young man from the USA came to live in my neighborhood. He wanted to learn Spanish and I became his teacher. Later he became my best friend. As the friendship grew, he started to share with me the Good News of God and His Kingdom. The Lord gave me His grace and I became a Christian when I was nineteen. This friend of mine was involved with the Navigators Ministry. Later I became involved too.
I have worked for different companies in Mexico. I also do some management consulting jobs and sometimes work as a counselor for individuals. My most important personal interest is to know the Lord better, to be like His Son and to serve Him. I want to work with people, serve them and learn as much as I can, especially how to be a friend and help for those in need.
By the hand of God, His authority, and His will, He allowed me to be molested through psychological sexual abuse. That happened when I was a little boy and later in my life I developed a lot of different problems from these incidents.
I mention that I was in the hand of God because everything is under His control, even this event, His authority because He has used this in many ways to develop me and to be part of a special ministry, and His Will because He is my Lord, I am His son and His servant by the blood of Jesus Christ who died for me.
I am part of God's perfect plan, and all the bad and good of my life can be used by Him for others. It is not my position to hold this against God. He knows everything and I am limited to bearing it.
This event in my childhood destroyed a road in my life. Fear, misunderstanding, low self-esteem, and doubts of my sexual identity later developed into homosexual feelings and thoughts. My life between ages fifteen and twenty-five was very sad and very lonely, fighting against my nature. I lost many battles in my mind but, thank God, lost none in my body. I was always under the care of God and His angels. he did not let Satan, other men, and my insecurity take me into the world of homosexual activity.
Instead, the grace of God made a new road, an exciting one, a different one. I was healed and I learned to live out this healing, forgiving myself and everyone who had sinned against me. This was not easy. It cost a lot of effort, tears, loneliness, and much more. It took more than fourteen years of encouragement and the power of the Holy Spirit. But to be honest, I can't say in my heart "Thank you God for this." I wish I could, but He is so powerful, and so loving that He gave me His love, peace, and holiness. Now I am able to say "Thank you, Lord," despite the pain I have felt.
Because all this happened in my life, I am a unique person with different skills, abilities, gifts, and more. I can understand what fear, pain, anger, and depression are. I can understand when people constantly battle with homosexual fears, when they cannot find a door of escape from this hell, and have lost their faith and hope. For those people I want to share the joy of liberty, freedom, peace, hope, love, sharing, charity, and more, because I was there and I know the way out.
I started by myself seven years ago, helping people (most of them gay) and sharing hope and freedom in Christ. I am a good example of being captive to these kinds of thoughts and finding the freedom to live as God planned.
Recently I have been feeling from God a new, open door to start working more directly with broken souls, homosexuals, and people without the love and sympathy everyone deserves.
I declare myself out of this! Evil does not have a hold on me anymore. I have learned to be forgiven, not accursed. I learned from my own experience that the Lord can take you out of this 100%. The Lord can fix everything if you want, if you desire, and if you fight. Fight against all that is in the world that can offer you temporal help, false and untrue help.
I looked for many things to be free of this journey and I learned something: in this kind of journey you cannot go alone. In fact, there is Someone that goes behind you all of the time, looking for you, calling you, helping you, but you have to let Him take you on His shoulders to get to the end of the journey. He did that to me and used a lot of His children to help me to finish the trip. I want to be another son of His ready to do the same.
There is a lot of misunderstanding on this theme, a lot of bad and useless information that can put you in deeper and deeper trouble. We have to be very careful. There is only one way out of this, The Lord Jesus Christ!
You may e-mail me at this address: omaldo@infosel.net.mx